It's Official...

I did it. I finally took that big step. That life-altering, illusion-shattering, step. I couldn't sleep the night before. I was so nervous. I kept tossing and turning. I woke up at least five times. I had dreams I can't even remember. I was excited and nervous. I kept thinking about all the changes this would bring. Finally! FINALLY!!! How long had it been? I counted the days, weeks and months since we met that fateful summer. Almost three years. Wow. Three long years. And now finally...today, today would be the most special day, it would be the day I would finally be able to tell him...

I DON'T!!!!!! I DON'T promise till death do us part, I DON'T promise in sickness and health, I DON'T promise to be there for you for the rest of your life! I don't, I don't, I don't. I say NO to a life of misery, NO to a life of lies, dishonesty and treachery! I say NO to a life that revolves around your needs, the life of the Golden Persian Prince -- The "Doodle-Tala."

And I have never felt better. I have never felt that there is so much promise and hope now that I have shed him from my skin. Everything feels lighter. I cannot even believe that I was stuck in such a soul-crushing relationship for so long. Maybe one day I will fill you in on all that was wrong, from the lies that oozed from his brain, slowly infecting me with his poison, to the constant uncertainty, and now the indiscretions with other women, casual phone calls, brunches spent together, a little lie here a little lie there, it surely can't hurt. And here I am again...

A little older, a little wiser, a little less trusting, a little more skeptical, a little bit stronger, a little bit broken-hearted. But ME all the same. ME in my essence. ME without sacrificing MY soul to your demons.